Iwo Akawanda Anovimbisa Mabasa eIye-Yega Saboteur

Vamwe vanhu, vakaita saLeonardo da Vinci, vanoita mipiro kuminda mizhinji. Vamwe vane basa rakakura pamwe nehovhisi yavanodzidzira zvakakomba. (Philosopher Friedrich Nietzsche, semuenzaniso, akanyora mimhanzi.) Vamwezve vane mabasa mazhinji. (Chiremba Peter Attia akashanda sechiremba anovhiya, chipangamazano, mainjiniya, uye kunyange mutambi wetsiva.) Kune vamwe zvekare vanochinja mabasa nguva zhinji, nekuti vanokoshesa zvakasiyana siyana. (Ivo vanogona kunge vari vashandi vanodikanwa kwazvo nekuda kwekugona kuchinjika, chaiko kuwedzerwa mune inokurumidza kuchinja hupfumi.)

Asi kune wese munhu anobudirira kugona kupfuura nzvimbo imwe chete, kune vanoverengeka vanonyudza zvigunwe zvavo mumvura dzenzizi dzakasiyana siyana vasina kumbodzika zvakadzika. Vanoedza izvi, izvo, uye imwe, mukutsvaga "chinhu chaicho." Ivo vanotenda kuti vane tarenda re chimwe chinhu asi hauzive kuti icho chinhu chii. Zvinotaridza kwavari kuti kana ivo chete vakawana munda wakakodzera, ivo vanove nechokwadi chekuzvitsaura ivo pachavo.

Edith Wharton anorondedzera munhu akaita seuyu, murume wechidiki anonzi Dick Peyton, mubhuku Sanctuary . Amai vaDick havagone kuona Dick achiva "munhu anongotsvaga mari" uye vanokurudzira dzidzo yakasununguka kungoona mafungire aDick achizununguka uye zvido zvake zvichichinja nekukurumidza. Wharton anonyora kuti:

Chero hunyanzvi hwaaifarira aishuvira kudzidzira, uye akapfuura kubva pamimhanzi kuenda kupenda, kubva kupenda kuenda kuvaka, neyakareruka iyo yaitaridzika kuna amai vake kuratidza kushomeka kwechinangwa pane kuwedzeredza tarenda.

Chii chinoitika muzviitiko zvakaita saDick? Chii chinotsanangura kutsamwa kusingagumi uye kusagadzikana?

Imwe mhinduro inogona ndeyekuti munhu anogona kunge aine tarisiro dzisina musoro dzekuti kubudirira kana nyore nyore kubudirira kunowanikwa sei. Ichokwadi kuti kubudirira kunoratidzika kunge kunouya nekukurumidza kune vamwe, asi izvo zvisingawanzoitika - kwete chinhu chekubheja - uyezve, kubudirira kwekutanga kunogona kunge kuri kutukwa kwete kuropafadza. Vamwe vana vatambi, semuenzaniso, havamboenderere kuve nevakuru vanoita basa kunyangwe vachiedza, uye mabasa evanyori vane bhuku ravo rekutanga riri hit anogona kumira. (Izvi zvinoita kunge zvakaitika kuna Harper Lee, munyori we Ku Uraya Mockingbird , uye kuna J.D. Salinger, munyori we Iyo Catcher muRye .)

Wharton anoratidza kuti chimwe chinhu ndechechokwadi nezvaDick, chimwe chinhu chinogona kubatsira kutsanangura mafambiro ehupenyu hwake: haana kufambiswa zvakakwana mukati. Anotaura zvinotevera nezvemaitiro amai vaDick pakuchinja kwaDick:

Akange aona kuti shanduko idzi dzaiwanzo kukonzerwa, kwete nekuzvitsoropodza, asi kune kumwe kuora mwoyo kwekunze. Chero kuderera kwebasa rake kwaive kwakaringana kumubvumidza kusava nebasa kwekutevera chimiro chakakosha cheunyanzvi, uye maitiro acho akaburitsa chivimbo chekuti aive akafanirwa kupenya mune rimwe raini rebasa.

Nehurombo, hazvi tevere kubva kune izvo zvawakatambura kukundwa mune imwe nharaunda iwe yawakafanirwa kuti uwane kubudirira kukuru kumwe kunhu. Zvinotonyanya kukosha, munhu wese akabudirira akave nekukundikana kukuru. (Zvinonzi Benjamin Franklin akazvimisikidza mumagetsi pakuedza magetsi; Thomas Edison angangodaro akaedza mazana ezvigadzirwa zvemafirobhu emagetsi asati awana aishanda; uye Leonardo da Vinci, saizvozvowo, akashanda pamusoro pemamwe mapurojekiti Uyezve, kunyangwe ivo vakabudirira kwazvo vanofanirwa kubata nekushoropodzwa. Nepo vamwe vachizvinyengerera kuti kushoropodzwa kwebasa ravo kwakarasika uye vanozvifadza kuti vasanzwisiswe njere, vamwe, saDick, vanorega pachiratidzo chekutanga chemhinduro dzisina kunaka uye pachinzvimbo chekushandisa kushoropodzwa senge ruzivo rwunogona kubatsira munhu kunatsiridza, vanobvisa izvo edza zvachose uye ramba uchitsvaga chimwe chinhu chitsva, chebindu rakajeka kubva pamaonero avo, imwe umo, vasina kana chavakaedza, ivo vasati vaine kukundikana.

Amai vaDick Peyton - kunyangwe iye asina mari yakawanda - anobhadharira Dick kuti aende kuchikoro chekusarudzika kwemakore mana kubva kukoreji aine tarisiro yekuti "kosi yekudzidza" uye kukwikwidza kune vamwe vadzidzi vane tarenda " gadzirisa mafungiro ake. ” Asi kunyangwe Dick achiita zvakanaka muchikoro, hazvisi pachena kuti ane izvo zvinotora kuti abudirire mune chaiko nyika. Wharton anoti zvinotevera nezve kuvandudzwa kwebasa raDick mushure mechikoro cheumhizha:

Pedyo nekukunda kuri nyore kwedzidzo yake kwakauya kutyisa kwekupokana kwevanhu. Dick, pakudzoka kwake kuParis, anga avaka kudyidzana nemugadziri wemapurani uyo anga ave nemakore akati wandei achidzidzira basa muhofisi yeNew York; asi iye Gill akanyarara uye aishanda nesimba, kunyangwe aikwezva kukambani nyowani mabasa mashoma mashoma akafashukira kubva mubhizinesi raaimbove mushandirwi wake, haana kukwanisa kutapura veruzhinji nekutenda kwake mune matarenda aPeyton, uye kwaiyedza kune hunyanzvi uyo aizviona seanokwanisa kugadzira dzimba dzehumambo kuti adzorere kuyedza kwake kuvaka dzimba dzemasabhabha kana kuronga kwekuchinja kwakachipa mudzimba dzevanhu.

Mubvunzo mukuru pano ndewekuti kushaya kwekubudirira kwaDick kune chekuita netarenda kana hunhu. Mukadzi Dick anoda kuroora, Clemence Verney, anotenda kuti imhaka yechimiro, achiti kuna amai vaDick:

Mumwe haakwanise kudzidzisa murume kuva nehungwaru, asi kana ainayo anogona kumuratidza mashandisiro acho. Izvi ndizvo zvandinofanira kunge ndakanakira, iwe unoona-kumuchengeta kusvika pamikana yake.

Muchokwadi, tarenda raDick rakapfuurwa neiya yeshamwari yake ine chipo, mugadziri wechidiki anonzi Paul Darrow. Zvakangodaro, Dick ane tarenda rakaringana kuve mugadziri anobudirira, kunyangwe pamwe asiri akakura saPaul. Dambudziko nderekuti haana kugadzirisa kwakakodzera. Semuenzaniso, pane imwe nguva, Dick naPaul vese vanoshanda pane zvigadzirwa zvekuvaka zvemakwikwi. Guta rakavhotera chitsama chakakura chemari chivakwa chitsva chemuseum, uye majaya maviri aya anoda kuendesa zvigadzirwa. Dick paanoona mamakisi aPaul, akaora mwoyo zvakanyanya pachinzvimbo chekunzwa achikurudzirwa kushanda nesimba.

Semukana waingave nawo, Paul anobata pneumonia nguva pfupi apedza yake dhizaini yemakwikwi. Anosiya tsamba kuna Dick, achimupa mvumo yekushandisa dhizaini yake kumakwikwi. Paul haapore pakurwara kwake uye anofa nguva pfupi yapfuura. Dick, tsamba yaPaul iri muruoko, anoedzwa kushandisa dhizaini yeshamwari yake. Kwechinguva, anotarisira kuipfuudza seyake. Asi Dick anonzwa kuti amai vake vari kumutarisa uye akafunga zvinangwa zvake. Kunyangwe iye asingataure chero chinhu, kuvapo kwake kunoongorora mafungiro ake. Mukupedzisira, anosarudza kubuda mumakwikwi zvachose, achiti kuna amai vake:

Ndinoda kuti iwe uzive kuti ndiko kuita kwako-kuti dai iwe wairega ichienda pakarepo ndingadai ndakapinda pasi-uye kuti dai ndaipinda pasi ndingadai ndisina kuzombomukazve ndiri mupenyu.

Zvinorehwa naDick "kuenda pasi" ndezvekuti pasina ziso raamai vake rakatarisa, angadai akashandisa zvidhori zvaPaul ndokuhwina makwikwi pasi pekunyepedzera kwenhema, uko kwaizove kukanganisa kwake kwetsika nehunyanzvi. Hunhu hwaDick, nekudaro, hunoratidzwa kuva nehunhu hwetsika. Haatyori kodhi yehunyanzvi yekuremekedza. Asi nyaya inoramba iripo: nepo iye asingatenderi kune yakaipa miedzo, anoshaiwa hunhu hwaanoda kuti abudirire. Anoshaya, sezvatingati nhasi, grit. Dick akajairwa kusahadzika uye kusagadzikana.

Rimwe rematambudziko pano, rinofanira kucherechedzwa, nderekuti kusvetuka kubva kune chimwe chiitiko kuenda kune imwe nguva dzimwe nguva kunokurudzirwa nezvikonzero zvakanaka, zvichiita kuti kufunga uye kuzvinyengedza zvive nyore mune zvimwe zviitiko. Kutanga, pane chimwe chinhu chinofanira kutaurwa nekusawira pasi kune yakadzikira mutengo wekunyepa. Uyo apedza makore matatu ari med chikoro, semuenzaniso, hazvireve kuti munhu anofanirwa kuve chiremba chero zvodii kunyangwe kana munhu achinzwa kusuwa chose semudzidzi wezvekurapa uye asingatarisire kuita sechiremba. Munhu anogona, mushure mezvose, kukanganisa, kutora iyo isiri iyo, uye nekukurumidza iye paanoona izvi, zviri nani. Iwe haugone kuripa makore matatu akarasika nekurasikirwa nemamwe matatu, kana makumi matatu.

Chechipiri, hatigare tichiziva kuti masimba edu ndeapi. Ichokwadi kuti panogona kunge paine munda waunokwanisa kusaziva. Ichi ndicho chikonzero iri zano rakanaka kupa vechidiki mukana wekuyedza uye kutsvaga kwavo tarenda.

Mukupindura kune yekutanga pfungwa, zvakadaro, cherekedza kuti Dick akatosiyana nemudzidzi wezvokurapa uyo anosvika pakuziva kuti haangofarire biology uye anatomy kana pamwe, kuti haadi kuona tsono. Dick anosiya zvaari kuita zvakasiyana kwete nekuti anowana kusawirirana pakati peakapihwa kuedza uye nehunhu hwake, asi nekuti akaodzwa mwoyo nekushoropodzwa kushoma. Hapana chinhu kunze kwekurumbidzwa kunogona kumuita kuti aenderere mberi, uye sekurumbidza kusingauye nguva dzose, anokudziridza tsika yekurega. Izvo tendency mumunhu inoita zvese kutsvaga zvakashata. Hapana nzira yakanakira wega-saboteur uye kurega.

Kana iri yechipiri poindi, mumwe anogona kupokana kuti kugona kwechokwadi kunogona kuwanikwa, neimwe nzira kana imwe. Asi kunyangwe kana zvisiri izvo, hupenyu hwevanhu hahuna kureba zvakakwana kuyedza zvese (uye hapana munhu angatitsigira nemari kuti tirambe tichitsvaga). Ichokwadi chaizvo kuti tinogona kupotsa mukana wedu wakanakisa nekuda kwekusamboedza chimwe chinhu chatingave kugona kwazvo, asi kana tikasanamatira nechinhu chero chipi zvacho, ticharasikirwa nemikana yese. Pasina kugadzirisa, hatisi kuzoisa mune basa rinodiwa kuona kuti ingani hunyanzvi hwatinahwo pabasa rakapihwa. Kana iwe uchingoita violin kwemazuva maviri, hauzomboziva kana iwe ungadai wakave uri mukuru wevhayorini.

Pane nyaya yekupedzisira yandinoshuvira kutaura. Izvo zvine chekuita nekutarisa kwaDick pamhedzisiro yekupedzisira kwete pane maitiro ekushanda nzira yake akananga kuchinangwa. Pane imwe nguva, amai vaDick vanomubvunza nezve dhizaini yemakwikwi. Anoti chirongwa ichi chave kugadzirira uye kuti anofanira kuhwina mumakwikwi nguva ino. Wharton anotaura izvi nezvemaitiro amai:

Mai Peyton vakagara vakanyarara, vachifunga kumeso kwavo kwakatsetseka uye ziso rakavhenekerwa, izvo zvaive zviri zveaiye anokunda ave pedyo nechinangwa pane chemumhanyi achangotanga mujaho. Akayeuka chimwe chinhu icho Darrow [shamwari ine hunyanzvi hwekuvaka yaDick] akambotaura nezvake: "Dick anogara achiona mugumo nekukurumidza."

Iyo, ipapo, ndiyo nhamo yaDick. Kune rimwe divi, anozivisa kukundwa kare kare. Anorega nyore; nguva nenguva, anorega. Asi iye anoonawo tambo yekupedzisira nekukurumidza. Nekudaro, nepo Dick aine mavambo mazhinji anovimbisa, haaunze chero chinhu kupedzisa. Anotaura kukundwa nguva isati yakwana uye nguva isati yakwana zvakare, anofarira kukunda.