Kusarudza Pakati Pevadiwa Uye Mufaro Wedu Pachedu

James Joyce ane nyaya pfupi, "Eveline," nezve mukadzi wechidiki ane makore gumi nemapfumbamwe, Eveline Hill, anotarisana nesarudzo pakati pekuramba achigara nababa vake vaimushungurudza muDublin nekuenda kuBuenos Aires naye (chakavanzika kubva kuna baba vake) mudiwa, mufambisi wechikepe anonzi Frank. Eveline anovimbisa Frank kuenda naye uye kumuroora, uye kwechinguva, anofara nezve tarisiro. Haazombofanirazve kunzwa Miss Gavan, mukuru kuchitoro kwaanoshanda, achiti kwaari pamberi pevatengi, "Miss Hill, hauoni vakadzi ava vakamirira here?" Pane kudaro, aizobatwa neruremekedzo. Hupenyu hwake naFrank, anofunga, hwaizove zvirinani - zvirinani - kupfuura hupenyu hwaamai vake vakafa nababa vake. Frank, kusiyana nababa vake, ane moyo munyoro uye ane moyo wakavhurika. Anoda kuimba uye murume akanaka.

Asi sezvo zuva rekuenda rinoswedera, pfungwa dzaEveline dzinotendeuka zvakanyanya uye kwete kazhinji kune ramangwana muBuenos Aires asi kune zvakapfuura. Baba vaEveline vaive vagara vachishusha. Kwemakore zvaive zvakaoma kuwana chero mari yekuti imba ibude maari, asi nguva pfupi yadarika, anga atanga kutyisidzira Eveline nechisimba, achitaura zvaaizoita kwaari asi nekuda kwaamai vake vakafa. Asi, Eveline parizvino anozviwana achifunga nezverutivi rwababa vake rwuri nani: nezve maitire aakaita vanin'ina vake uye naye kuseka vachiri vadiki nekupfeka bhoneti raamai vake; sei kamwe, paakange ave achirwara, akamuverengera nyaya uye akaita toast. Anorangarira zvakare kuti akavimbisa amai vake kuti mhuri irambe iri pamwe chete. Chii chaanofanira kuita? Joyce anonyora kuti:

Tiza! Anofanira kutiza! Frank aizomuponesa. Aizomupa hupenyu, pamwe rudo, futi. Asi aida kurarama. Sei achifanira kunge asina kufara? Aive nekodzero yemufaro. Frank aimutora mumaoko ake, omupeta mumaoko ake. Aizomuponesa.

Kana nguva yacho yasvika, zvakadaro, Eveline anozviwana asisakwanise kuenda. Frank anomukwevera akananga kuchikepe, asi anobata simbi nesimbi nesimba rake rose. Chipingamupinyi chinodonha, uye Frank anomhanyisa kumashure achipfuura chipingamupinyi akananga kuna Eveline, achimufonera, asi zvakashaya basa. Eveline anosarudza baba vake vanoshusha pane hupenyu huri nani naFrank. Anosarudza kugara muDublin.

Ndakaziva vanhu vari mudambudziko raEveline. Pasina nguva refu yapfuura, ini ndaive nemudzidzi akange anyatsoita zvakanaka muhafu yekutanga yemesita asi hunhu hwebasa rake hwakangoerekana hwadzikira. Ndakamubvunza kuti chii chainge chaitika. Vakati vadaidzwa kumusha kuti vachengete vanin'ina vadiki uye nhengo yemhuri inorwara. Mudzidzi aida rubatsiro kwandiri pakusarudza zvekuita. Akabvunza kana ndaifunga kuti angave ari munhu ane udyire kana akasarudza kusiya guta rekumusha kwake kuti atarise kuzvidzidzo zvake. Handirangariri zvandakanyatsotaura, asi ndinorangarira kuti ndakamutumira nyaya yaJoyce nezveEveline Hill.

Chii isu chatinofanirwa kuita mune yakadai seiyi - imwe umo nhengo dzemhuri isu takazvipira kutidzosera muhupenyu?

Chinhu chekutanga chandinoshuvira kucherechedza ndechekuti nyaya iyi yakatosiyana nevaya vakaita seinotevera: Mwana simbe uye asina basa anohura mari yevabereki vake pachinzvimbo chekutsvaga basa, kana zvisizvo anogara ari kunze kwehusiku mudhorobha. nepo mubereki anorwara achida rubatsiro. Muzviitiko zvekupedzisira izvi, vanhu vari kusarudza mafaro asina basa pamusoro pezvakakosha zveavo varipedyo uye vadikanwa uye pamwe, pamusoro pebasa ravo.

Nyaya yandiinayo mupfungwa yakasiyana zvakare neiya yekuti munhu anobva kwakashata anoita hupfumi asi achiramba kupa chero rubatsiro kumhuri yake.

Vamwe vanogona kuyedza kufananidza pakati penyaya dzakadai seyaEveline kana mudzidzi wangu neiya yemwana asina basa kana iye akapfuma anokanganwa midzi yake. Vamwe vangashandisa zvakafanana kuitira kupenda munhu anosarudza kuteedzera zvinangwa zvake seane udyire uye asingaongi. Asi hapana fanano pano. Kujekesa, ini handisi kukurudzira kuti munhu wese anobva kumamirire ekumashure anova akapfuma uye akabudirira ane chisungo chekutumira mari kunhengo dzemhuri dzine rombo shoma, kana. Zvakawanda zvinoenderana nemabatirwo avanga vaitwa nevamwe kwaari. Vabereki vemunhu vanogona, mushure mezvose, vanga vachishungurudza zvakanyanya - mupfungwa kana mumuviri - zvekutadza chero chikumbiro chavangave nacho pakutenda kana rubatsiro rwemwana. Asi muzviitiko zvakawanda, kunyanya idzo idzo umo vabereki vake vanga vasina chinhu asi vachitsigira - pamwe vachiita kuzvipira kukuru kuti vakwanise kubhadhara kuenda kuchikoro - zvingave zvisina hunhu uye zvisina hunhu kufuratira mumwe wavo gare gare, apo mumwe aigona kubatsira.

Nekudaro, kesi dzandinadzo mupfungwa dzakatosiyana. Izvo zvinofarirwa nenhengo dzemhuri mumamiriro ezvinhu senge emudzidzi wangu kana Eveline anongoda kubatsira. Ivo vanoda mumwe - kazhinji mwana asi dzimwe nguva munin'ina, muzukuru, kana imwe hama - kupira zvinangwa zvake, zvishuwo, uye mukana wekuwana mufaro. Vanoomerera pakuva nezwi rekuti hupenyu hwomumwe huchafamba sei, uye kunetseka kwavo kukuru hakusi kwekunakirwa kweumwe asi kwavo.

Catherine Arrowpoint kubva mubhuku raGeorge Eliot Daniel Deronda zvikonzero zvakasiyana neEveline Hill. Catherine anobva kumhuri ine mbiri, uye kwaari, haisi mari kana nguva inoda vabereki vake; asi, vabereki vaCatherine, amai vake kunyanya, vanoomerera pane veto simba kana zvasvika pakuroora kwemukadzi mudiki. Amai vacho vanoda kuti Catherine arase pfungwa yekuroora muimbi, Herr Klesmer, kubva pakaderera. Iye anoedza kunyengetedza Catherine kuti mubatanidzwa wakadai uchave usina kukodzera - zvinonyadzisa kumhuri.

Ipo Joyce's Eveline akapatsanurwa mukati uye achinamata kuna Mwari kuti amuratidze nzira inoenda kumberi, amai vaCatherine vanotaura zvakajeka kuti Catherine ane mabasa emhuri anotadzisa kuroora Herr Klesmer. Amai vanoedza kuzvipa mhosva-vanotsausa mwanasikana kuti vasiye zano rekuva mukadzi wemurume waanoda. Catherine, zvakadaro, anoramba. Eliot anonyora kuti:

“Mukadzi ari pachinzvimbo chako ane mabasa akakomba. Panowirirana basa uye kuda, iye anofanira kutevera basa. ”

"Handirambe izvozvo," akadaro Catherine, achitonhora zvakanyanya zvichienderana nekupisa kwamai vake. “Asi mumwe anogona kutaura zvinhu zvechokwadi achizvishandisa zvisiri izvo. Vanhu vanogona kutora nyore basa rinoyera rezita sezita pane izvo zvavanoshuvira kuti chero munhu aite. ”

Ehe, zvingangove zviri nyore kuna Catherine pane zvaEveline kuti amire akatsiga, nekuti izvo zvinodiwa naamai vaCatherine zvakadzika mumutsetse wemagariro uyo Catherine anoona seanopokana. Amai vaCatherine havade rubatsiro. Zvakadaro, idzi mbiri dziri munzira dzakakosha dzakaenzana, kunze kwekunge vakadzi vaviri vechidiki vakaita sarudzo dzakasiyana. Catherine anotenda kuti ane kodzero yekuroora murume waakadanana naye, uye anozviita. Eveline haatombogumisa kuti ane basa rekugara, asi anozviwana asingakwanise kuenda.

Ipo Eveline achibata nedambudziko rake, anorangarira chimwe chinhu chinotaurwa naamai vake pamubhedha werufu. Amai vacho panguva iyoyo vakapenga uye vasina kunyatsopenga, asi mazwi acho anodzokera kuna Eveline: "Derevaun Seraun." Joyce haapi dudziro yemutsara, asi sezviri pachena, ichi chirevo cheIrish Gaelic zvinoreva kuti: "Pakupera kwemafaro, kune kurwadziwa." Isu tinopihwa kuti tinzwisise kuti kuna Eveline, mutsara uyu unopa zano muyero mukufarira kugara.

Kune, zvakadaro, zvakadaro, zvidzidzo zvakasiyana izvo Eveline angadai akave akatora kubva kune yekare chirevo. Aigona kuve, semuenzaniso, akagumisa kuti achange achibhadhara mutengo nekusiya, kuti pamwe kurwadziwa hakudziviriki, asi izvo zvakadaro, kusiya naFrank ndizvo zvaanofanira kuita. Sei asingadaro?

Zvakaoma kutaura, asi ndinofunga Eveline anoona kuti pane chisungo chakamubata kuDublin, chisungo chaasingakwanise kudambura. Zvingadai zvakave nyore kuti Eveline aende naFrank achienda kuBuenos Aires dai baba vake vaive vakaipa chose, dai asina kumboedza kufadza vana vake vadiki kana kuita chero chinhu kutarisira Eveline. Eveline yapfuura, mune iyo kesi, ingadai yakave yakajeka, asi ramangwana rake raizove rakajeka, pamwe rakajeka zvakanyanya. Chiri chakaipisisa kupfuura kusave nerudo zvachose, dzimwe nguva, rudo rusina kujeka, rudiki, uye udyire, rudo rwakasimba zvakakwana kutikonzera marwadzo asi rwakachena zvisina kukwana kutiunzira mufaro.